I've been battling depression and severe anxiety for awhile now, I've recently been trying extra hard to get myself to stop being afraid and make some friends. I've never had any friends and I haven't had a whole lot of human interaction outside my family. I've been homeschooled since second or third grade. I'm 17 and I keep living with this undying fear of people. I have this dream of one day being able to talk to people without fear. I have a dream to have friends I can talk to and feel comfortable with. I want to have people to play games with and laugh with and not be afraid. This is something I have wanted for so long I couldn't even number the days, weeks, months, years.
I've played World of Warcraft for a very long time, it's something I consider important in my life. Even though I haven't played much in WoD and I'm way far behind on everything, it is still important to me. But I can't help but feel alone. I used to have family who played as well, but they have quit, leaving me by myself. I want to be able to talk to people ingame and try to make friends but I can't will myself to do it. It doesn't help that so many people I encounter on my server are rude. I've never been able to get into raiding or rated BGs because there is too much reliance on each other, too much communication and cooperation for me to be able to handle. I'm at the point now where I won't even do normal BGs because I am so undergeared I'm afraid of someone calling me out on it. I know I could just ignore them but I can't handle the pressure. I feel like the only person who plays the game that has problems like this. I'm as solo as a solo player can be and I hate it. I guess I'm here looking for any advice, if anyone has it.
I've played World of Warcraft for a very long time, it's something I consider important in my life. Even though I haven't played much in WoD and I'm way far behind on everything, it is still important to me. But I can't help but feel alone. I used to have family who played as well, but they have quit, leaving me by myself. I want to be able to talk to people ingame and try to make friends but I can't will myself to do it. It doesn't help that so many people I encounter on my server are rude. I've never been able to get into raiding or rated BGs because there is too much reliance on each other, too much communication and cooperation for me to be able to handle. I'm at the point now where I won't even do normal BGs because I am so undergeared I'm afraid of someone calling me out on it. I know I could just ignore them but I can't handle the pressure. I feel like the only person who plays the game that has problems like this. I'm as solo as a solo player can be and I hate it. I guess I'm here looking for any advice, if anyone has it.