Yea, I'm not gonna lie. In fact I'm sorry that I did to you guys when I brought up the topic here.
http://us.battle.net/wow/en/forum/topic/6794209623?page=2#22
The point is, is I'm admitting it. This is probably the only form of socializing I get or attempt to make.
I'll be honest, I troll, I mess around, I'm perky when I want to be, I'm serious when need be. The reason I made more serious posts with my Alt Prudence, was the fact that I felt like I needed to keep things separated so people would take me seriously some of the time. Well I know now that I was dead wrong, and I realized this after someone called me out.
Call me fat, a noob, stupid, whatever. I know People are gonna make jokes about this and tell me that I'm trolling. If you do so, then go ahead. It's not going to stop me from what I came here to share with everyone.
Recently I had a doctors appointment because I've been battling alot of depression. I don't like taking medications because I think its a whole mind over matter issue. When I talked with my doctor about the symptoms I was having, they told me that I was agoraphobic, and that there was medication for it, but I would much rather prefer some sort of therapist.
I'm new to all of this, World of Warcraft was there and always has been to help me deal with the difficulties of life. This Agoraphobia has impaired a lot of !@#$ that I would like to do, but every time I try and attempt it, I end up with the same result of some overpowering fear that won't let me do anything.
I wish I could be a normal functioning person like everyone else, I wish that I could come out of my room more and be the person others want me to be. I hate the fact that I'm like this, and would like to do something to change it, but change scares me just as much as this phobia does.
Posting serious topics on Prudence does not excuse my joking, or trolling on this character; But I hope that at least one person can relate to this topic. That's all Im asking for. It would be nice to talk to someone inside of WoW rather than IRL about the stuff that they have gone through too, or if they are like me and deal with the same phobia.
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